I'm actually starting to love my job...

If you've been reading for a while or you have read the "About Me" section, you know that I work in a call center. My center is a little bit different than most. We're not customer service or sale or anything. The company I work for provides phone service for the deaf and hard-of-hearing.  I work in a department that provides phone captioning for a maily hard-of-hearing users. (If you're someone who is hard of hearing or have family members who are, the phones are free! So send me an email and I can tell you where to go if you would benefit from this service.). What makes it nice, is we have zero after-call work. Once a call is closed out, my job is done and I wait for the next call.

Recently, I interviewed for a new position in my company and I got it. My official job title is "Mentor Assistant".  Basically, now instead of taking calls for 6.5 hours every work day, I get to take a few calls if I have time, I correct tests for trainees, I test people who apply, and I mentor any CAs who need assistance with their job.

Before, I was just taking calls. I stared at computer screen all day and basically had zero interactions with other human beings. That was not fun.  I was depressed because I didn't have any friends and I just...didn't want to be at work when 09 rolled around each day.

But now, it's a lot better. I get to chat with the people I work with and have awesome, intelligent conversation with them. I feel like a grown up with a big girl job and responsibilities. It's nice. It makes me feel a whole lot purposeless. And let me tell you, I have never had such a hard time defining my purpose in this world...

They say that 19 is just a hard age. You're transitioning into adulthood from a life in high school and it's just overall crappy. Well, they're just right. It's not fun..but I'm trying to make the most of it and I'm really glad that I'm starting to love my job. Hopefully it just gets better.

Wonderful World of Working

When I was in high school, I was dreaming up all the possibilities my future held.  Your teachers and your counselors put so much pressure on everyone that the time to decided your fate is high school English class. They hand out your credit trackers, give you a list of scholarships to apply for and say, "Welp, girls and boys, this is your future. Figure it out."

While sitting there in my 7th period English class, I decided that I was going to go to Utah State University, study education or literature, something like that. Be a teacher in a middle school and make a difference.  My how things have changed...

When I graduated way back in 2011 (Okay, so it wasn't that long ago, but it feels like it's been forever...) I never ever would have guess that I would be sitting in a desk at a call center blogging while watching hulu, awaiting a my boot camp date to roll around.

This job (in case you're new around here, I'm a relay operater for the hard of hearing.  I just got promoted to a Mentor in the training department.) is the first job that I have ever had.  While I was in school, I was too busy dancing and taking AP classes...I didn't have time to work. I got this job about a month after I broke my arm. I had rehabilitated just enough to type after several painful weeks of physical therapy and I needed something to keep my mind off missing J.

I didn't expect to be here long enough to move up. I planned to move on to bigger and better things that did not include this call center. But now, here I am two jobs deep (This one and the whole Army career thing I've got coming) and doing a whole lot of things that I just never expected to be doing...Today I was invited to interview for yet another promotion!

I have to prepare a 10 minute presentation about hard-of-hearing. I don't know who I'm presenting to, but I'm pretty dang nervous...The best part? I'm doing it tomorrow. I get one day's notice! Ha, awesome right...Well, guess I get to go shopping for yet another new outfit to interview and present it... Why do I have to be such a ray of sunshine that everyone wants to be the future of their company?!

I could say a whole lot more about the crazy twists and turns of this camo-colored chaos, but I've probably already lost you. Well, wish me luck!

Nowhere to go but forward...

Alright, I decided that before I start moving things into place, I'd give you a sneak-peak of my bedroom.

Like I said, in high school I thought that these two colors would be totally awesome...Well I've not only grown out of that but I also have an extremem need for change right now. This room has been a place where I have shared a lot of things with a lot of people (not just J) and I really want this room to be different. I want it to be a place where I can escape and not think about the people that I've shared this room with.

What do you think?

A couple of days ago, I bought a white shelf thing and some drawers to go inside it ( I also bought a bunch of new gym clothes and I spent way too much money...#retailtherapy...haha)

I'm planning to get rid of that dresser in the top picture, my computer/computer desk, and my TV. I am considering also getting rid of that book shelf in the talk picture as well, but I haven't quite decided yet.

I hope that this brand-new room will help me feel...clensed. I've been so frustrated with everything in my life for the longest time. Even when I was ridiculously happy with J and I could hardly want another thing in the world, I felt lost. I felt like I had no direction and no real plans for me. Yeah, at that point, I was planning a life with J. I was really excited about that, but it was hard to be okay with just being a wife. Not that there is anything wrong with that, I just didn't see that being the life for me.

Currently, I'm at a turning point (I'm not happy about how I got to this point, but as much as I hate to admit it, it must be for the best...) that basically decides how things go for me for the rest of my life. Yes, it's true, you can change your direction at 25, 30, 50...whatever, but I'm seeing this "transition period" of my life as a very crucial point in my life. 

I talked to J's sister last night. We'll call her T. T said something to me that was very insightful. She said "What other choice do you have than to pick up and forget about it?"

And she's right...I won't just be able to forget the way that I have been treated, and I won't forget this hurt that I am feeling right now, but I don't have any other choice but to pick up and move on with my life.  I'm not going to feel better over night, but I have to take some baby steps...And my room, that is the first step.

I've got nowhere to go but forward... 

P.S-- I check into my unit and get my military ID on Tuesday...I'm getting my drill schedule and I'm gonna get to work...Wish me luck!

Sunday Social

 

So I see these 'Sunday Social' things on most of the blogs I read, and I don't usually have a good way to answer the questions, but today, I do! So here I go, first timing this 'Sunday Social'. Do you have something interesting to say? Head over to A Complete Waste Of Makeup and join in the linky party :)

1. What is your dream job?

I would love to be sitting in one room apartment writing books that make teenagers every where love reading...But as it turns out, I'm not the most gifting story writer, so that won't ever happen. Other than that, I really want to be an officer in the Marines...maybe someday...

 

2. If you had just won the lottery and didn't need to work for money, what would you do with your time?

I would pick up and move to California and live with my Marine and spend every possible minute with him until he gets annoyed. Then I would do the usual stuff, read, blog, Pinterest, sew, craft, play tons of music, and work out.

 

3. When you were a kid, what did you want to be when you grew up?

I've always wanted to be a teacher. Not very exciting, but I always looked up to my teachers when I was little and wanted to be just like them. I did occasionaly dream of being a rodeo queen though. I grew up around horses and thought that I had what it took to be Rodeo Queen Material.

 

4. What piece career advice would you give to someone just starting out in your field?

Well, if we're talking about my current job, I would say move up as quickly as possible. My company is growing so quickly and it's getting even more competative. The time to advance is now. If we're talking about the military, I would say, keep you head up and always do your very best work 100% of the time.  It pays off in the end to know what you're doing and be the best at it.

5. Biggest Pet Peeves.

Quiters, people who depend on you for everything but are dependable for nothing, busy days at work where there is no time to blog, people who compare their two week relationships to my over a year long distance relationship, doubters, being underestimated...And I could probably write a post just about petpeeves so I better stop now.  

6. Biggest Fears

Losing J, something happening to my sisters, parents etc., failing, being late, and throwing up, getting fat.

:D Yay for my first Sunday Social!