The Part Where She Gets Dumped

Hey there blog-world, put on your sympathy hats because this is about to get sad.

J decided yesterday, that he no longer loves me. That he'd rather see other people and that I'm not worth the lonliness that he feels every day.

He officially broke up with me and told me that he doesn't  want me to have his ring and that he doesn't feel anything towards me. I don't know what to do.

I have never felt so broken. I had so much trust in J and so much hope for our future. I knew that we were going to make it. I was not scared that this would happen...But I should have seen it coming.

I should have known that it was all too good to be true, and I wouldn't ever get the "happily ever after..." that I wanted.  It's too fair and it's too right for me to just get what I want. Right?

I am sitting here at work, staring at my computer and typing and trying so so hard to not think about him. I'm trying to erase him from my brain but he is everywhere in everything.

I just keep looking towards the sky and asking for the hurt to go away...It doesn't.

For now, this blog might be a little bit...depressing, but I'm going to keep blogging. I think that it will be threaputic in a sense. Obviously the direction is going to change a bit, but I won't let him take this away from me.

I won't.

I'm Katie. I'm a 20-something Soldier & student taking each day one step at a time. Living through all the growing pains that come with becoming that person that I always wanted to be & finding that bright side in all of this Camo-Colored Chaos. You can get to know more about me here.

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Annie said...

first off-- there is no such thing as "happily ever after"-- I know that it felt like that though. When I was engaged to my Marine, I felt the same way... but girl, reality comes back soooo quickly with a military marriage. They are hard! Sorry to be so blunt, wish i could make that sentence more reader-friendly, but it's just the truth.

I will be praying for you, I know it's hard, but ya know what? God has a plan for your life.... it's a plan with only Katie in mind-- yes, it may involve other people, but it's his plan for YOU!

Stay strong lady! You're on the verge of something wonderful :) It may take you back to your Marine or into uncharted territory.

You've got this!

Sarah said...

I'm sorry to hear this! Things can only go up from here and I hope they do so quickly :) Stay focused on yourself and something good will come of the hardships.

Amelia said...

Ouch, that's awful, I am so sorry girl :( I cannot imagine how hard that must be, planning your lives together one second and the next being told it's all over. I really feel for you. <3 I haven't experienced much in the way of break ups so my advice is limited, but you'll be in my thoughts and prayers! Try to stay busy and focus on your goals, the rest will come in time.

Anonymous said...

Sorry to hear this. Maybe you dodged a bullet? I know it's hard to see right now, things will get better. I promise.

____j said...

I hate that you are hurting, but think of it as his loss. The truth of the matter is, if he couldn't handle you guys being apart now, when you're just dating, he probably wouldn't have been able to handle it when you got married. It's difficult to see the positives right now, but your happily ever after is going to come! And, as cliche as this may sound, if it's meant to be, it will be!

Jane said...

Breakups suck. You absolutely deserve someone who thinks you are worth the time apart to be together. You shouldn't have to settle for anything less. Lots of e-hugs!

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